My OCD has a particular element to it ( it's not all of it but it is part of it) called scrupulosity, which takes different forms for different people and part of mine is to do with my spiritual beliefs.
Today, thanks to the support of my amazing wife,and the tools my many therapy sessions have equipped me with over the years, I have reached a mental clarity and calmness that has eluded me for a long time.
I have to write this as being open about this is important to me.
I am a pagan, heathen, polytheist.
I have been now for longer than I have been anything else.
I enjoy church sometimes but my beliefs are my own and wouldn't call them christian.
I practice rune craft and I carry out my beliefs in my own, tolerant way.
I'm aware that some people might feel misled by me recently. Please understand that it was something beyond my control at the time.
I know that I'm not meeting any standard of anyone else, only my own.
I know that someone somewhere will look at me, what I have written, what I say, what I do and pretty much anything else and disapprove, condemn or disagree with me.
And that no longer worries me.
I do not look at them that way and, even if I did, they wouldn't change their way of living.
I am, for the first time in a long time, happy with me and my beliefs.
Long may this continue.